my one & only poem

To the guy that writes of me

What'd you think, I wouldn't see?

The words you put out there for free

I am still a human being  

Go ahead, sit and wait

But allow me to set you straight 

You & me, It was just one date

Yeah, I know it gets so old 

I come across as stone cold  

There's no saving me from going numb 

So many want me under their thumb

I have to use my best discretion 

That's why you look at me & question

I bet you think I'm just your kind 

I am not a girl you can define

They warned us loves just a game 

And now, I've learned & got good aim

I was not always this way

It's the other men that's to blame 

But really, I'm just confused 

What am I suppose to do?  

It's like they had something to gain

Each & every time I wept in pain 

 

Hit after hit, I can't seem to forget

That's why they say I walk with a chip

You see, I've given all of me 

To the ones that just up & leave

Now Let me speak for myself 

I'm working on my mental health 

 

You say I'm heartless, 

One big hot mess 

I can't help but take defense  

I'm sorry, I'm just a bit distressed 

I don't wanna get you down 

But I ain't ever gunna come around 

 

I tend to leave without a trace 

I just feel safer in my own space 

I do want to love and be loved 

Im sorry, you're just not the one 

Now I'm on this righteous path 

Please let me be & don't distract